A distant memory.

Somehow I've fallen under your spell
and somehow I'm feeling it's "up" that I fell

-As Long as You're Mine from Wicked

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Some memories can be a lie. You wouldn't be sure if it was a dream or if it was real. 

A few days after the graduation, I remembered another graduation that I attended one lustrum ago. It was the high school graduation of my dear brother, Dean. In my instance, I know this wasn't a dream. My brother did have a graduation. He did walk to get his diploma. 

The thing that I remembered though was an old friend that I've been thinking about lately. He was been in my mind since I knew we were going to San Francisco this summer. You see, he lives in San Francisco and I just want to meet up with him. I guess feelings are coming back. The thing is, does he still remember me? Will he even reply? 

He was there in my brother's graduation. He also had a brother in the same batch. His brother and mine were classmates. I sat on the bleachers on the very top. I got really bored. My face was totally blank. I saw him. He was bored to death too. Our eyes met and he instantly looked away. I slouched. All of a sudden I look to his way and he wasn't there. He was right behind me. He invited me to go to the track. There were a lot of bored people there as well. However, it felt like it was just the two of us. We talked long. We finally hear our brothers' section. We went back. I went down to be part of my brother's graduation picture. I got back to him. He was talking with his dad. He introduced me. He then went back to the track leaving me with his dad. "So you're Bianca. You know _______ talks about you all the time." I just smiled and went back to him. And that's the last time I saw him.

Back then it was nothing to me.And now I regret being blind. I wish I'd be able to have the guts to even just give him a message in facebook. I want to meet up with him. If I don't maybe I'll regret once again. 

I guess I just have to smile these things off. :)

-Mabel. xx

Gradball

Yes I'm live in living color
Life ain't lived in black and white

- Live in Living Colors from Catch Me if You Can 

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Our gradball was supposed to be a night to remember. Yes, it was memorable. It wasn't what I expected though. But I looked great! Well, everyone did. 

The time when Rovey sang on stage... She was just amazing. I was so proud. 

Uuuh... The gradball was alright. There was dancing and partying. Of course I partied hard. 

I was in a table with my dear Charlie, Franz, Camille, Winona, Liveta, Sean, Owen, Quianna and Yusi. It was fun having them for company. Apparently Sean's date was really Franz. I thought it was all a joke but it's for real.

When the slow songs came in I was alone again. Angelica went by beside me. Angelica wore this glittery yellow gown. Angelica's one of my best friends. I have having this burden in my mind. I wanted a certain someone to ask me for a dance. It wasn't much. Maybe it's because I got really bored. Dionico went by and asked me. We danced. I never really knew that dancing can be more boring than just sitting. Dionico and I were just talking on how he's loving the night. Dionico's one of my close guy friends. He's just like a brother to me. He loved the night since he danced with the girl that he loves. The only annoying thing in him is he keeps on complementing me. I keeps on telling me that I look good and crap. But I don't. Yes, I'm insecure. Who can blame me? I told him that I'm getting tired of dancing. 

Addi went by to ask me but then the music changed. 

For the rest of the program, I was with Angelica. I missed hanging out with her. We talked and talked. =)) 

Gah! This post looks ugly. -_- I'm sorta not in the mood. Anyway...

The night ended. I had to wait for my mum for an hour. I hanged out with Charlie, Kai, Tami, Rachel and Hannah in their room. It was nice hanging out with them again. I thought our friendship was history, but then they were still willing to have me hang. We just chilled mostly. Aaaand the night ended. Done. 

Hihi. I'm sorry that this post's lousy. Forgive me. 

-Mabel. xx

I've finally defied gravity.

I think everyone deserves a chance to fly

-Sentimental Man from Wicked

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Last Friday was the most awaited day of all Setonian seniors. It was the day when finally we become gentlemen and ladies. It's the day that we finally get what we deserve.

Our graduation went well. It was proper as all teachers planned it to be. 

There's nothing much to say, but when we all stood up to get our diplomas, I felt like I've finally defied gravity. 

I started the day with my family. My dad reserved seven seats for Buffet 101. The food's awesome. It seriously is like having lunch in a five-star hotel. It's seriously delicious. I couldn't stop from eating. I loved everything. 

I'm so glad that my gradmother could make it. And so as my two wonderful helpers. I love them to bits. Especially Ate Ces. She has been with us since my brother was a baby. She could be my second mum actually. We all had a great time. I actually forgot that I had a graduation to attend. 

I guess that's it. Another chapter of my life would come soon enough. I can't wait. I will always be a Setonian. 

-Mabel. xx

A wicked problem

And nobody in Oz
No Wizard there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

-Defying Gravity from Wicked

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So last night my family and I watched "The Great and Powerful Oz". With my sudden interest with Oz made my head spun like crazy. When I unfolded the cinema's audience chair, I can feel the excitement I had inside. I knew I had to find the infamous Elphaba from Wicked. I knew she would appear somehow. Elphaba is the Wicked Witch of the West. I was expecting to encounter her. However, the movie ended and I never heard the name "Elphaba". I heard Theodora, Envora and Glinda. Of course Glinda was there. Glinda's the Good Witch of the South. 

Basically, The Great and Powerful Oz is the story on how Oz had a Wizard. I don't want to be a spoiler, so I'll just say that I get the parallelism of plot of The Great and Powerful Oz to the classic, Wizard of Oz. You see, the Wizard of Oz is about Dorothy and the others having an adventure to go to the great wizard because each one of them had a wish. However, when they finally ended up in front of the wizard, they found out that the Wizard can't really grant wishes. That was how The Great and Powerful Oz ended. The Wizard was never really a magical person. He was just this person who's really intelligent. See the parallelism? 

I also see the relation of Wicked and the Wizard of Oz. I'm still reading Wicked, I haven't finished it yet. Though I already see the Nessarose, the sister of Elphaba, was the Wicked Witch who was crushed by Dorothy's house. She used to have silver slippers, but then Elphaba made them into ruby slippers. I see that Wicked is the story of the witches of Oz. Glinda, who was formerly called Galinda, was the Good Witch. So we practically see that it is related to the classic. 

The question that boggles my mind... Is The Great and Powerful Oz related with Wicked? It was really confusing. I was off my seat when I heard Glinda's name. Glinda was there, so obviously I was waiting for Elphaba. In the begining of the Wizard's journey to Oz, he met this witch named Theodora. It never really made sense to me. Who was Theodora? The Wizard ended up playing with Theodora's feelings. With the Wizard's Grandmother's music box, Theodora fell head over heels for him. Theodora had this sister named Envora. I think. (So is Theodora and Envora Elphaba and Nessarose?) Questions were swimming in my head. If they were the same people, why wasn't Theodora green skinned? Elphaba had this problem when she was born. Theodora ended up broken hearted and wicked. Envora forced her to eat an apple that made her wicked. She turned green, and yes, it does resemble Elphaba. But why a different name? And why isn't Envora wearing ruby slippers? Why was Theodora turned green just then? Or maybe Disney just didn't know how Wicked was also parellel with the Wizard of Oz. Things like this make my head explode. Questions of these random plot containing a classing... But ugh. I want the answers. Maybe Disney just wanted random witches... But why still name the Good Witch of the South "Glinda"? 

Well, I'm off to sleep. See you around. 

-Mabel.xx

Tears everywhere.

People make mistakes
Holding to their own
Thinking they're alone

-No One is Alone from Into the Woods

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Death is inevitable. Everyone will die soon enough. You could see some poeple breathing, but are they alive?

This Sunday was intense. During mass I could feel my tears flooding my face. I was scared. The fact that I might die sooner than expected made me cry a river. You  might think I'm over reacting. Maybe I am. Who really knows? I tweeted death tweets. I'm actually touched that some people actually care. Some people would cry for me. They wouldn't be able to cry forever though. I know I will die, everyone will. All I want to be is immortal. I want to be immortal with my writing. I want everyone to talk about me, in every generation, and in every country. Sign of hope maybe. I just want to make a difference. 

-Mabel. xx

Fun Run. :)

One day to a new beginning
Raise a flag of freedom high
Every man will be a king!
- One Day More from Les Miserables

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If you think that jogging for a couple minutes is tiresome, what about running for 5K straight with a burden inside your head? I volounteered to join this fun run. I thought it was extremely fun and it would be awesome. Yes, it was fun in a way, but when you don't know the difference between your sweat and the rain, that's the problem. I could feel my sweat going down, and so is the rain. The rain was hard. I could actually see the road getting shiny. I was actually anticipating on falling. I was also scared since the day before, the doctor said there was something wrong with my heart. It wasn't the typical asthma thing, it was severe. I didn't want to think about it. Intead, I tried to enjoy. I ran. I ran fast and alone. At first, my setion made a pact to never leave each other's side. It seems that everyone has left. I left some people behind because I wanted to clear my head. Some drama was made, but it was eventually solved. 

**Sorry I haven't really posted in a while. I will start reviving this blogspot. :) Hihi. 

-Mabel. xx