"We've got each other's backs"
You all know that I have a dude best friend named Mj. When we were in our Senior year we would always tell each other that we will always have our backs. We kept on bragging that we will be in SFU together and shit. Unfortunately, we are not in the same block. He has new friends and I have mine.
When I came in during Tuesday, I wasn't looking forward to school. I wasn't looking my best. While at the car, I saw Mj getting off and coming in the campus. I was a bit thrilled that he was there. At least I have someone to talk to. When I entered the campus, I immediately went to my locker to change from flats to high heels. I walked in the corridor and saw Mj sitting alone. I knew he had a problem. I knew that he wasn't feeling okay. I went to him and asked him what's up. He just told me that everything's fine. Though I know that it wasn't. I was just standing there and watching him mope around. Clarence, a block mate of mine, suddenly came in and said hi to me. I wasn't gonna just stand and wait for Mj to talk, I knew he needed some time alone. So I went with Clarence, and just talked.
During assemblies, I usually sit with Mj. Since he's not from my block, I want to spend time with him. Clarence and I walked in the assembly room. Clarence sat with Cyrus (one of our blockmates) and I sat in a seat with an empty row. Mariko arrived and sat beside me. I saved a seat for Mj. Mhary and Den suddenly came and sat beside us. No one really knows that I kinda feel left out when I'm with them. Although, I feel happy with them because we have so much fun. Sometimes I just stay quiet and Den only seems to notice that I've not been myself. It's a half feeling for me. Anyway, I saw Mj coming with Jez (another block mate). I tried telling him that the seat was for him. He completely ignored me though.
I don't really remember what happens on the following days. I'm used to Mj not talking to me for the whole day. But for a whole week? He was starting to become a douchebag. He was always at the back of my head. I kept on thinking if I did something terribly wrong.
Then Friday came.
I got really sad when it was the end of the week and he was still ignoring me. I was having lunch with Den, Mariko, Mhary, Jez and Clarence. Suddenly, out of the blue, I cried.
Den knew what was going on. I couldn't speak, so she just told everyone instead. There was this big awkward silence. They kept telling me that it's his loss and shit. But I know deep inside that it's my loss as well. He was the person that I always went to when I needed someone. He was always there for me. Imagining him gone was just painful. He's my best friend.
When we got back, our next class was 'Culinary Techniques'. So we had to use the other kitchen for our class. Mj was kitchen staff for the Bistro that day. He looked as if he was enjoying his company with his block mates. It was obvious that he doesn't need me anymore. The problem is that I need him, badly. When it was our break, we got out of the kitchen through the other kitchen. When we got back, I was with Mhary. Den and Jez were still in the other kitchen. I just saw then from afar that they were talking to Mj. The next thing I know was Jez was beating him up. Mj wasn't that hurt, but I could feel his pain. I had no idea that Jez would be doing that.
When I got home, I told mum everything. She suggested to text Mj again and again. I didn't know if I could do it. I went to Des' house just for the heck of it. I helped Des with her math. I texted Mj.
It wasn't a pleasant conversation. However it all went well at the end. Apparently he was hurt when Jez gave him a head lock. I was still the one who said sorry at the end. I guess true friendships are tested with quarrels like this. Though I know we will definitely have each other's backs, I was still a bit upset because it didn't much affect him as much as it affected me. Oh well.
-Mabel. xx
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