A Next To Normal Sunday

There's only now

There's only here, give in to love or live in fear no other path no other way no day but today

-No Day But Today from Rent

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I heard my alarm. I immediately set it off and glanced at the clock. It was 9:25 in the morning. I looked around the bed room and noticed that no one was there. I remembered that it was my brother's CSB (College of Saint-Benilde) exam. I thought it was the perfect time to watch Gravity Falls since no one was there. I stood up with my eyes barely opened and looked for the TV button. I pressed the on button and found the remote. I changed the channel and started to watch. Today's episode was Double Dipper. I was kinda disappointed since it was a replay, but I still had a chance to laugh. 

I was too lazy to go down stairs. I decided not to have breakfast. I grabbed my phone and noticed the Wifi was on. I immediately grabbed the laptop under the bed and started being in my own world. I firstly wrote myself a letter. As you notie, I write my future self letters. I used to literally write it in a yellow pad paper. The paper ran out and I decided to put it here. I swore to myself that I won't read it after 3 to 5 years. Yes, it has this time capsule kind of idea. 

After everything, I decided to watch Next To Normal, not just snippets, I mean the whole broadway. Luckily, there's a bastard who took a video of everything. Obviously, I was anticipating Aaron Tveit's parts. When I got in the middle, I didn't really care if I saw Aaron, (since his character was dead, he's doesn't really show much) I was actually into the story. I never really expected to be interested in this. The plot was nice, but it wasn't my type. I loved how I was astonished by it. I was never interested in plots of real life situations (except when someone dies). I loved this one though. By the end, when Dan finally said Gabe's name, I felt my tears running down my face. I was agog. I wasn't expecting to cry. It was a really touchy moment. 

I wanted to find a picture of Aaron with his tux in I Dreamed a Dance.  All I could see was him and Alice dancing. It was alright. 

My mum arrived and she went straight back to bed. I went down to have brunch. 

I was stuck in the laptop with nothing to do. A few hours later my brother texted my mum to pick him up. She rose and left. I saw my dad arrived and kissed him immediately. 

I loved how my family isn't like the one in Next To Normal. This made me think that I am blessed. I might have these times that I want different parents, but now I feel totally blessed with what I have. 

My mum and my brother arrived and I decided to sleep. I hate dreaming. It reminds me of my past. I love sleeping though. I just hate dreams that reminds me of my horrible past. I don't remember much about this dream, I just remember waking up with tears surrounding my face. 

I took a bath and got ready for mass. I hated my wound when take baths. Oh, I forgot to tell you, I tripped hard during our retreat. Now I have this huge disgusting wound. I hate it when I see the puss coming out. It's fucking disgusting. 

I wore my "Let It Shine" shirt and a wonderful pink and black leggings. (No picture for now) It sucked. Since my wound was swelling and had to dry, I actually pulled one side of my legging up. I looked seriously wack! After the mass we went straight home to eat dinner. 

All I prayed about a while ago was for my brother to pursue his dreams. I wanted him to be the rock star that he has always pictured. I want to see him on stage with lots of screaming fans. I love my brother so much. I wouldn't ever replace him. He's my Dipper. 

I guess that's all for today. I promise I'll make better posts next time. I feel sleepy. Okay, bye. 
-Mabel. xx