A distant memory.

Somehow I've fallen under your spell
and somehow I'm feeling it's "up" that I fell

-As Long as You're Mine from Wicked

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Some memories can be a lie. You wouldn't be sure if it was a dream or if it was real. 

A few days after the graduation, I remembered another graduation that I attended one lustrum ago. It was the high school graduation of my dear brother, Dean. In my instance, I know this wasn't a dream. My brother did have a graduation. He did walk to get his diploma. 

The thing that I remembered though was an old friend that I've been thinking about lately. He was been in my mind since I knew we were going to San Francisco this summer. You see, he lives in San Francisco and I just want to meet up with him. I guess feelings are coming back. The thing is, does he still remember me? Will he even reply? 

He was there in my brother's graduation. He also had a brother in the same batch. His brother and mine were classmates. I sat on the bleachers on the very top. I got really bored. My face was totally blank. I saw him. He was bored to death too. Our eyes met and he instantly looked away. I slouched. All of a sudden I look to his way and he wasn't there. He was right behind me. He invited me to go to the track. There were a lot of bored people there as well. However, it felt like it was just the two of us. We talked long. We finally hear our brothers' section. We went back. I went down to be part of my brother's graduation picture. I got back to him. He was talking with his dad. He introduced me. He then went back to the track leaving me with his dad. "So you're Bianca. You know _______ talks about you all the time." I just smiled and went back to him. And that's the last time I saw him.

Back then it was nothing to me.And now I regret being blind. I wish I'd be able to have the guts to even just give him a message in facebook. I want to meet up with him. If I don't maybe I'll regret once again. 

I guess I just have to smile these things off. :)

-Mabel. xx